“Are you nervous?” She asked.
“Me?” She nodded, “Um no, just excited.,”I lied, I'm an
eight year old girl about to perform with the Mark Morris Student
Company. “Not nervous at all,”
The 14 of us stand crowded in the unfamiliar tech room, reserved for
performers only. We watched the older girls on the small T.V. They
were amazing,
“I hope to dance like that when I'm older” I whispered into
Layla's ear.
The purple and blue lights from their dance flash through the tiny
windows on the door. Layla and I held hands, our way to give each
other good luck, we were too anxious to speak. My leotard was making
me irritated. It was itchy and I couldn't wait to take it off. It was
ugly too, light blue and green velvet leotard and blue water colored
chiffon skirt, with a butterfly sewed to the hip. Yeah. I hated it.
We apparently looked “cute” and “so adorable”, and thats all
that really mattered, so I guess we were stuck with it.
“Ready to go,” Misty and Sarah said in unison. “Break a leg!”
Their faces were red and tired, like they just ran 5 miles and hadn't
slept for days. They've been anticipating this moment for months.
So were we. All our practice would finally pay off and we would
perform.
We walked on stage. You could hear the quiet pitter patter of out
feet prance across the floor. We took our places. The first dance was
fast, the “Texas Wildflower” dance, or the hoedown, as we liked
to call it.
I danced the best I could, we all did, we danced for Misty, what she
told us earlier was going to change us forever.
I felt betrayed and angry but I wanted to cry and hug her and never
ever ever ever let go but I knew this day was coming but it could
wait right she didn't have to leave? She did, we all knew it. In the
middle of dance, I looked and saw her crying, I missed my music que,
I was late, she's not crying anymore.
The dance teacher I've had since I was 4 years old, was moving to
texas to take care of her mom after her dad died. I didn't know how
to feel. All these thoughts screaming to come out.
I felt guilty for even thinking I was mad at her, everyone did. But
we weren't mad, we were just confused. I didn't want to be selfish so
I put on my happy, brave face.
At the end of the show, when we went to do our bows, everyone was
crying, even our parents and especially Misty and us. We ran up and
hugged her, one big crying circle. It was out last dance together,
ever. The bright stage lights stung our red, puffy eyes.”I'm going
to miss her so so much” I said to myself, “We all are.”
To this day, I remember Misty so well. The way she taught, and
danced, her loud country accent, and cheesy jokes, the way she owns
every room she'll ever walk into with her fun personality. How she
loved to sing along the piano and sing old themes songs from ancient
TV shows. Shes the teacher that taught me how to dance, she taught me
all the fundamentals, she sparked the fire, and she did it so well. I
miss her, but I know how shes owning up the whole state of texas.
This is like the most heartfelt essay ever written! Really I was surprised at how much I liked it. I feel like I know everyone in your story, and I was feeling what you were feeling.
ReplyDeleteThank you! I was trying to make my reader feel like he/she was part of the company too, and to feel the way we all were. I'm glad I succeeded!! :)
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